Sniffle sniffle

Today I am feeling so emotional about my little baby getting so big.

I seriously cannot believe she is changing this fast. I wish I could stop time. One one hand, it is so exciting that she is growing up and doing new things but its also so sad. All the moments that were special to being a newborn are gone, and I can never have them back. I am going to be that mom crying on the sidelines as her child walks into the first day of kindergarten. So far I actually miss my baby when she is sleeping so it is just inevitable.

I have never loved like this (obviously) nor have I given so much of myself to anything before and every moment is worth it. A terrible day with Livy is still the best day of my life.

I think I am going to have a million kids now. Maybe I am the next "octomom"...I'm kidding. I miss being pregnant and I want to do everything all over again that I did with Olivia. I am craving being around a pregnant woman and I am crying at all baby related stuff on TV. BUT I will try to wait for longer because the idea of having two toddlers makes me cringe.

With these feelings being so strong, I wonder if this is truly my calling in life...my heart aches for it. Is this what happens when you are "called"? I don't know but its definitely on my mind.

Anyway, the pictures here....the first one is on a walk. It was so cold and she insisted on hand sucking the whole time so they about froze off. The second one is from today after a long day of "school" (her baby class), shopping and going to baseball practice! TOTALLY wiped.